When Democracy gets "bent over a barrel"...

Democracy does not work if those that are being governed by themselves are being brainwashed.

In 2017, while I was living in Madison Park, Seattle, WA I received a letter from Phillip demanding that I fly back to HI and finish the ‘job’ as was ordered with Tony.

See, the thing about that ‘job’ that no one to this day until now knows…. It was an impossible job.

As soon as Tony found out how infatuated I was with Todd he became irate and jealous and tried to keep me all for himself. When he realized how much I despised him, truly despised him, and that was never going to change, he became abusive, violent, and started allowing Todd and his friends to use me and pass me around and sell me at Chuck Turner’s house. Chuck’s house was a cul-de-sac over from Tony’s in Kihei, HI, and Todd had a house in Kihei as well. It was simple for them to drug me, and then stuff me in Tony’s yaris and drive me a block over to Chuck’s house.

Chuck has a brother in L.A. that works in the porn industry too and so they started making movies. The same movies they tried to blackmail me with to stop testifying for the DA against Chris and leave the kids and the island with.

If she’s a good girl, and you have nothing on her, what do they do? Drug her and make it up, that’s what they do.

These movies, and all the money they were making, and the fact that Annie was so deeply involved in the abuse with Todd at that point were ultimately why Phillip got involved. Phillip never cared for me, he never even spoke to me. He let my abusers and the men and women I was testifying against tell him my hearts’ wishes and make up my story… he never even bothered to fact check. Ultimately because Phillip never cared. Phillip wanted me for no other reason than Tony and Todd were bickering over me and they were making so much money off of me. Phil was a bigger dog and wanted to prove it by taking their ’chew toy’ away, there was nothing else to it.

After that, as abusers do, Tony became emboldened, and started blackmailing and threatening Todd AND Phillip. I was even getting threatening letters from him….

“Kel, you conspired with known criminals to murder a known federal informant, you’re gonna do this…..”

In 2017 when I refused Phillips demands that I fly back to HI and finish the job I supposedly ‘botched’ because I knew it was a set up, I was punished for it by the Madison Park assault a couple months later in which they attempted to break my back and left me to die in a dumpster. My cousin Ducre helped them and was rewarded with a promotion and a new truck for his efforts.

In 2018, after Phil had already ran away to hide in the military, and Jhihong and Annie were keeping my children from me in the apartment upstairs in Brookline I was contacted by Tony himself asking me to fly back to HI and he would pay me thousands of dollars to have sex with him again as he had somehow just come into a large sum of money.

I played along for a bit to get what information I could, but ultimately I never flew back to HI or ever saw Tony. The man revolts me.

The thing is… no one, not even Tony himself knows what he told me under interrogation that day. It’s the reason I halted the entire “mission” packed up and booked it out of there…

Ed got involved in Brookline shortly after... then another botched murder attempt by their fire fighter Ritchie, and now he's worm food. They don't like it when people botch jobs, no matter what the reason.

In my case, to be fair, I didn't "botch" the job, I interrogated Tony, and because of the information I received I packed up and bailed. Either way, according to Todd and Phillip, that was "above my pay grade to decide".

I look back on it now with sadness. Tony Gross is truly evil incarnate, and he played both sides for so many years… He used to brag to me about how he was the one there when his mother died and how he just sat there on the bed next to her and watched her pass away and then lied about it so he could keep collecting her SS checks….

If I had completed my mission that day I would be in federal prison right now getting abused and gang raped every day exactly as I was threatened they would do to me. But so many other atrocities would have been prevented. Fuat in Greenlake with my son and daughter for one…. I would be behind bars and being tortured for the rest of my breathing days as is the deal that phillip and todd made with the Hawaiians…. But they wouldn’t have been blackmailed…. Which is ultimately why they sent me to him in the first place…

Tony Gross has no care for anyone other than himself. He despises the feds, loathes and resents Raymond more, and men like Todd and Sugi and Phillip he absolutely detests because they get everything he feels like he deserves. Tony always wanted his place at the table… and after spending almost 3 years with him as his “gift” I know more about that man that almost anyone. Tony didn’t care what he told me, I was supposed to end up being gangraped to insanity in prison when they were all finished with me….

Tony, just wants to watch it all burn, and that is what none of them understood because they were all too focused on ‘fame’ and ‘money’ and ‘phillip impressing his elders’ and ‘todd showing off in telluride’ and ultimately… everyone keeping their rapist sex trafficking butts out of jail.

I don’t understand how I was expected at that point in my life to complete a job that I found out mid performance was a set up… “they needed a sacrifice”… and phillip “wanted to close some open cases against them for good”…. Tony wanted to destroy everything, and the rest were powerless to stop him without going to jail themselves….

That’s when I ran, shortly after Tony called me remembering the botched Job but not remembering what he told me and he threatened to “cut off my son’s testicles and fingers”…. Which ultimately he had Fuat do through Phillip…

I had no training… I was a gymnastics coach and a PTA mom, and an anatomy tutor… I had no family, and after what Tony told me…

There’s no ‘right’ way, because they’re all the same ending only different paths, and the only way out, is to change the ending, which ultimately means… Tony has to be stopped and his power to blackmail so many people has to be taken away. They’re all too terrified to go to jail and just keep committing the atrocities Tony demands, which ultimately just gives him more to blackmail them with. It’s a vicious perpetuating cycle.. that like beautiful katamari just keeps adding trash and more people to be blackmailed.

The thing about Phillip's "recipe"... you have to know the right questions to ask. You can't just ask leading questions like Todd and his skanks do to get the answers you want. It's like speaking to a person in a dream state, you have to guide them to the knowledge you seek, unless like Todd the only thing he cared about knowing was "what makes you cum?"

None of them ever cared, not Todd, or Phil, or Tony, or Roy, or Ed or any of those other sex trafficking money laundering pigs they've gotten involved since. None of them ever "wanted to marry me" they sold me to dogs. They only wanted the paperwork because it's impossible for a 'wife' to testify against her husband.

Looking back… I feel many things regarding that ‘mission’… had I completed it as was ordered July 26th, 2016 and many atrocities in the years after would have been avoided, but I would have been rotting abused in prison as a ‘sacrifice’….

Then I look at the forced exile since then, and the abuses, and the cult stalking, and the atrocities…. All so no one finds out that Phillip and Todd tried to blackmail an untrained and innocent loving and loyal PTA mom to kill a federal CI who was blackmailing them. Both men weren’t going to pull me out after this mission, they were going to leave me to rot….

Even after all their military training, to them I was nothing. They were finished raping me and Todd became famous selling me drugged at parties for two years between 2014 and 2016 and after on into 2022 just recently on March 12th.

Also, a federal crime he and Chuck Turner and Tony didn’t want anyone to know about….

I wasn’t willing to be a sacrifice, but because of that Tony was allowed to pick and choose who he wanted ‘punished’ and removed and who he wanted around. And the thing is, tony never cared. He just wanted to watch it all burn.

Tony used to sneer and brag to me, “Kel, one day you are going to be my biggest and greatest firework.”

I assume he means that he blackmailed Phillip and Todd into destroying an honest and loyal woman that adored them both among many other atrocities… Lowell being one of them.

And so, I look back on it all with melancholy, as much as I know what they did to me is not my fault, it cannot be undone, and as much as I am not a killer or a “sacrifice” … if I had finished the job that day…. The last 6 years all over the planet would have been drastically different.

So perhaps it is me that created my own destiny in all of this….

What do you do when the devil offers you a choice, “do you want to lose your hand or your foot?” and you’re expected to be “grateful” for being "allowed a choice" afterwards???